At the beginning of this month i sank into a deep depression. I have a history of depression and tend to phase in and out of sadness, but I had been doing really, really well for a while. I decided to be completely and entirely alone four weeks ago and I cut everyone out of my life. I have spent this entire month alone, crying most every night, because this is what I do. things will be going pretty okay for me then i will remember that I hate myself and that I am awful, and I will throw away everything good in my life and start treating myself so badly. I am so tired of this. I want to break the cycle but i do not know how. I just wish I could stop. —I Don't Know How To Fix This, And I Am Exhausted