Fate forced me back into this goddamn shit hole of human garbage. My hatred of this place and the people here is only reaffirmed every day. None of you dumb fucks can even define the word "Ego", "Enlightenment" or any of your other bullshit New Age hippie crap; yet you spit this shit at me every day. Fuck your positive thinking; some of us are clinically depressed you fucking assholes; we are STUCK LIKE THIS. Some how in a matter of two months of being back here; I've become SO FUCKING DEPRESSED I'm not even painting any more and sit in my apartment all day staring at the ceiling; this moment of anger is one of the few moments of motivation and inspiration I have any more; other than to roll another cigarette. And fuck you pigs too; I can't even go out for a goddamn walk in this city without some fucktard cop rolling up on me and giving me the Grand Inquisition. I hope the natural gas pipe lines under this city explode, and the entire hellish place is swept into the ocean by a giant wave of piss and fire. I was born here; but I have never felt so unwelcomed in an area. Fuck all of you, fucking fucks. —I hate all of you