Why is it so difficult...
Posted
on Mon, Dec 19, 2011 at 11:43 AM
...to just walk away from you? After months and months of on and off (but really kind of still on), this is getting exhausting, but I just can't seem to give you up, or give up on you.
At the best of times, I don't know where I stand in your books, or even fit into your life... and I don't think that you do either. But maybe I just don't--if that's the case, it would be nice to know sooner than later.
Somehow in spite of this, and maybe this is stupidity on my part, I still love you... in the more-than-just-a-friend sort of sense (because hey, we'll still be friends, ya, right). There are times when I can feel you feeling the same way, but then everything else in your life clouds it, and it disappears.
I wish that was as easy for me to do as it seems to be for you, because honestly, I'd rather not love you.
But I do. —Honeycrisp