I looked at you today when things happened and wanted so badly to let it just be. I cried...you wondered what it was about and it's this: I see you and think of you as a father of my children, my protecter, someone who makes me feel like no other man has ever made me, but then I realize the reality. We are both in situations that would hurt people so much I don't know if I ever could and if we went through that would my horrible flip side personality ever hurt you? I don't want to hurt you. I love you but I seem incapable of ever loving without hurting the person. I don't want to do that to you...things will take their course. I just have no idea what that course will be right now. —Your Pussy